WOw, Lord. Crazy last couple months. Mostly spent dealing with the illness. I was the unusual 2% and the virus will still not return to dormancy. I am permanently on more meds and that has helped a lot so i can go about normal daily life again! Still fighting the illnesses but they have gotten better! I am back in La Crosse, WI and while my heart still earns for the people in poverty and doing missions I am finally adjusting and finding my purpose here in the states for now.
I've been back for over three months now, and not a day goes by that I don't think about India; the poverty, the ministries, the way God showed up and of course the people there! The people I became friends with on staff, the people at church and the people in the brothels and streets changed my heart. It's the people God worked through to reach me the most in India. I pray for them often. I thank God for them!
Coming back/transitioning was definitely the hardest part of the whole trip. The going didn't bother me at all, the adjustment came naturally there and finding my place there went even more smoothly. I still haven't fully transitioned back, and to be honest I don't want to, because if I do I wouldn't think about everyone in Kolkata as often, I wouldn't be praying for them as much and I would be conforming back to my old self. I'm not that person anymore and in my opinion, doing missions made me a better person. I don't fit in as well back here in the states, but I never fully did anyway. God had always been tugging on my heart to be a missionary, for longer than I even realized. It's hard sometimes because being a ministry here is harder for me to see. But I am seeing more clearly that this season back in the states as just as much purpose as being in India did.
I am going to grow closer to God here, learn how to properly rest in Him, get my degree at Moody Bible Institute- where I study what I love; Jesus, His bible, missions and ministry to victims of sexual exploitation, and build in my relationships with people I love here. God is opening up my eyes to the good things that are right around the corner, not just for a few years off when I'm a full time missionary but the near future; this spring, this year next year!So excited for what's a head. I'm not sure what it all includes, but I can have joy because my Lord promises good things! I'm changing my perspective and fighting onward!
I've been back for over three months now, and not a day goes by that I don't think about India; the poverty, the ministries, the way God showed up and of course the people there! The people I became friends with on staff, the people at church and the people in the brothels and streets changed my heart. It's the people God worked through to reach me the most in India. I pray for them often. I thank God for them!
Coming back/transitioning was definitely the hardest part of the whole trip. The going didn't bother me at all, the adjustment came naturally there and finding my place there went even more smoothly. I still haven't fully transitioned back, and to be honest I don't want to, because if I do I wouldn't think about everyone in Kolkata as often, I wouldn't be praying for them as much and I would be conforming back to my old self. I'm not that person anymore and in my opinion, doing missions made me a better person. I don't fit in as well back here in the states, but I never fully did anyway. God had always been tugging on my heart to be a missionary, for longer than I even realized. It's hard sometimes because being a ministry here is harder for me to see. But I am seeing more clearly that this season back in the states as just as much purpose as being in India did.
I am going to grow closer to God here, learn how to properly rest in Him, get my degree at Moody Bible Institute- where I study what I love; Jesus, His bible, missions and ministry to victims of sexual exploitation, and build in my relationships with people I love here. God is opening up my eyes to the good things that are right around the corner, not just for a few years off when I'm a full time missionary but the near future; this spring, this year next year!So excited for what's a head. I'm not sure what it all includes, but I can have joy because my Lord promises good things! I'm changing my perspective and fighting onward!
I will put my Spirit on him,
and he will bring justice to the nations.
2 He will not shout or cry out,
or raise his voice in the streets.
3 A bruised reed he will not break,
and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out.
In faithfulness he will bring forth justice;
4 he will not falter or be discouraged
till he establishes justice on earth.
In his teaching the islands will put their hope.” -Isaiah 42:1-4
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